UNDER THE HOUSE

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When I was a child growing up in New Orleans, I had a favorite hiding place.  Cool and shady, even during the hottest, most humid summer, no one could see me and I could let my imagination run wild.  It was under the house.

There, I felt safe.  My dad was an angry and abusive man.  He drank to oblivion most nights, which was really the best case scenario.  On the nights when he drank one-too-few beers, he could become very agitated and physically violent.  I was usually the target of his ire.

My mom suffered from schizophrenia.  Hiding under the house provided refuge from what was going on inside those four crazy walls. 

I’d learned how to “jump out” of my body at a very early age – around two-and-a-half years old.   At the time I didn't consciously know what I was doing, but I know now that it was my way of keeping my mind safe while my body was being injured.  I was practicing “truncation”.

Truncation might also be called compartmentalizing, which is a widely used psychological analysis.  We separate events, thoughts and feelings from the core Self, usually as a way to avoid some type of pain.

Eventually, to become a healthier person, I had to learn to integrate all the hiding places in my world.  That didn’t begin to happen until adulthood.  Actually, it’s still happening.

Staying present has its advantages.  Compartmentalizing – not so much.  All of life is happening in this very moment, as I write this.  Nothing else matters.  I don’t want to miss a thing.

If you were traumatized as a child – in any way – you likely truncate and don’t even know it.  If you are accused of not paying attention, of being listless, of not caring…a part of you is likely in hiding.

Integrating all parts of Self is crucial.  When I cut energetic cords – the tethers that keep you bound to early childhood trauma – it’s like stepping out into the daylight.  You begin your healing journey.  You're on the way to becoming FREE and WHOLE.

It’s time to come out from under the house. 

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Healer, Psychic-Medium, Intuitive Profiler, Mentor, Speaker and Writer, Connie is available for private sessions by appointment only. Through Intuitive Profiling and movement/release of negative energy, she identifies and cuts unhealthy energetic cords. Releasing these harmful energetic connections allows us to function at a higher vibrational frequency. 

Services:
Private and Couple’s Sessions (cutting energetic cords)Energetic Space Clearing for business (staff profiles included) or homeMentoring 619-573-5927 ~ soulsync@cox.net Shift Happens! 

HEALING with MOTHER LOVE

Many of you know that besides being a clairvoyant and a medium, I am a healer and a mentor.  I have been given the gift of seeing, hearing, sensing and healing in multidimensional ways.

All those years ago, when I first had the privilege of working with my dear mentor in the New Orleans area, she urged me to go deeper, go all the way to the SOUL.  She was adamant that no healing can take place at the psychic level alone.  

Working with the BODY SUIT

I have unfailingly followed her sage advice and now pass it along with reverence to my own students.

The most exciting aspect of my journey is the fact that I continue to learn new things about myself.  Every once in a while, I become complacent and coast, or rest, on my laurels.  Fortunately, if that happens,  The Universe does its thing and drop kicks my butt.

The Vessel

I have been dealing with an intestinal issue for several months.  Although I've eaten healthy for the last decade, years of too much wheat and refined sugar, beginning in early childhood,  do not support my current vibration.  So, it's a little like a war between light and dark.  The old faction wants to keep the reign, but the new says NO WAY!  

With the help of three dear friends, one a Naturopathic Doctor/Acupuncturist, one a whiz at Meridian Testing and the other my closest friend, I have found some answers and have a healing plan of action in place.

If you're still reading, here's where the BIG AHA moment comes in...

I am a researcher at heart, and so as I often do, I was browsing the net for information.  I came across a site that spoke highly of a supplement called COLOSTRUM, which is rich in protective and regulating factors necessary to promote health and vitality.   I decided to add this to my daily regime.

Still with me...?

Later the same day, I got quiet and did a card reading for myself.  I use the Sacred Path cards, which is a beautiful oracle deck based on Native American spirituality.  I laid the cards out slowly and thoughtfully.  Suddenly, the cards began to communicate with me.  

The final card was called RETURNING HOME - The Shawl.  This card speaks of coming home to the arms of Mother Earth and being wrapped in her nurturing love.

Mother Love

I began to cry.  This card opened up something very deeply buried within me.  I had missed out on Mother Love.   Although I have been intellectually aware of this for many, many years, it had never hit me this way.  Now, I was FEELING THE PAIN.

My mom was a schizophrenic and was never very affectionate toward me and did not protect me from my abusive, alcoholic dad.   She, did however, avidly protect my only sister and brothers.  The result is that I took the brunt of the physical, mental, emotional and sexual abuse.  This is my karmic journey; I truly realize how it was my choice at a SOUL LEVEL and how it plays into my path.  

Bringin' it home now...

Later that same day (yes, this all happened in one day!), I was on the phone with my dear friend, who is wise beyond her years.  I mentioned my emotional response to the oracle card.  It was easy enough to understand my reaction, even though, as I often hear from clients, I thought I'd already dealt with the majority of mother issues.

Heal the Spirit, Heal the Body

I shared the research I'd done that morning and how I would add Colostrum to my daily regime.  Previously, she'd mentioned that she felt that there was something my body was not receiving; something that was key in healing my gut.  She reiterated.  I asked if she had any knowledge of the supplement I'd just discovered.

She began to relate her experience of the birth of her children and how she breast fed each baby.  She educated me on the pre-milk production of colostrum, which only lasts for a small period of time after childbirth.  This powerful fluid protects newborns as they come into our world of bacteria and viruses.  

In other words, it is a mother's innate way of LOVING and PROTECTING her baby.  

MOTHER LOVE...  OMG!  

Without consciously realizing it, I am seeking Mother Love to heal my body.  When this is absent in early childhood, it has a major impact.  I have mothered many throughout my life, starting with siblings.  I get it and a much deeper level than ever before.  I am JOYOUS!

Balancing my physical vessel began in 2003 and continues.  Developing my psychic gifts was a piece of cake compared to dealing with this 3-D body.  But, I know it's all part of the package!

The last time I dealt with big mother issues was immediately preceding  the gift of mediumship, some 15 years ago.  I sense that a higher level of healing abilities awaits me on the other side of this jaunt.  

Did I mention that I am JOYOUS?!

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Healer, Intuitive Profiler, Psychic-Medium, Mentor, Speaker and Writer, I am available for private sessions by appointment only. Through Intuitive Profiling, I identify and cut unhealthy energetic cords. Releasing these negative energetic connections allows you to function at a higher vibrational frequency.

I also perform Energetic Space Clearing for business (staff profiles included) or home.

619-573-5927 ~ soulsync@cox.net

Shift Happens!

WANNA BE RIGHT OR HAPPY?

These days my confidence comes not from being right, but from not fearing to be wrong.  

Know Thyself

But it wasn't always this way.  Looking back, I  see that many of the debates and arguments in which I participated revolved around wanting to be right.  There was an urgency coming from deep within, a powerful push to come out on top. 

This wasn't about winning and certainly not about thinking that I was more intelligent than my “opponent”.  No, it was something much deeper; so deep in fact, I wasn't even aware it existed.  When it reared its ugly head, I had to instantly and robotically become one with it so as to be able to continue the charade.  I didn't know it was a sham, mind you, but it was just that.

That thing so deep within, well that was FEAR.  Growing up in a war zone mandated the appearance of assurance.  It wasn't safe to be seen as wrong or weak.  So, I bucked up, pushed out my lower lip and stood strong.  As strong as a little girl can stand, that is.  I was a great little actress but that didn't win me any awards.

The Most Important Relationship is with Yourself

Not fearing to be wrong was a result of a great deal of trial and error.  Eventually I found that falling, then getting up and falling again and getting up again indeed make me strong.  I learned that making a mistake is not equal to death.  Owning my missteps makes me more powerful and confident. 

Ultimately, it’s about loving me.  I didn't yell at my young son when he made a “boo-boo” because I understood he was learning something new.  Ah; I get it. I now feel the same way toward myself.  I’m always learning something new and hope to continue until I draw my very last breath. There will be many more ups and downs, but each journey into the valley and up to the peak is precious to me.

Peace accompanies not having to be right.  The more I let go of being right, the more RIGHT I become.  Go figure…!

DIVINE DISCONTENT

Divine Discontent can be quite useful.  It can be the rocket fuel needed to get you moving again and it can stimulate your creative juices.

What Moves You?

When this energy is channeled in a positive direction, it becomes a natural step in a direction that supports your Soul’s calling.  It can help you weed out those things in life that distract you from your heart’s desires.

When not acknowledged as such, however, an imbalance can occur.  Symptoms are: lack of motivation, fatigue, trying new things (jobs, locations) and nothing holding your attention, low-grade depression, frustration, irritability, nothing has meaning, soul weariness, a feeling of having a half empty heart, cynical attitude, heaviness and pressure set in, physical discomforts, feeling discouraged, overwhelmed and rarely having fun. It is natural to have these symptoms come and go during the course of your life but as the exception and not the rule.

If you feel that these symptoms hang on, it may be time to look at root causes.  These causes more often than not, began in your earliest childhood and show up as energetic cords connecting you to old negative imprints.

These cords can be cut once you realize and accept the fact that you are stuck.  Remember, being stuck is merely a symptom of those energetic cords/early imprints.  Once the cords are cut, it is as if the very anchors that once held you back are instantly gone…and you are FREE to move in the direction of your truest desire.

If you have unsuccessfully tried to free yourself from emotional malaise, it may be helpful to know that even though you've come to intellectually understand the nature of your discontent, you are likely still tethered to family-of-origin beliefs that do not serve you (aka, energetic cords).

Help is available!  The very essence of my work, cutting energetic cords, is a healing process very near and dear to my heart.  We are ALL stuck at one time or another.  Now that you have this information, being stuck moves from unconscious to conscious…you now have a choice! 

CONNIE STEWART: In Sync With the Stars

www.soulsync.com

The San Diego Uptown News recently published an article, “In Sync With the Stars”, about my extra-ordinary paranormal psychic (healing) abilities and how my abusive and traumatic childhood (in the deep South) actually played a pivotal role in my spiritual and professional life today. 

Come into my eyes,
and look at me through them,
for I have chosen a home
far beyond what eyes can see. 

~ Rumi

You can pick up a copy around town or simply click on this link http://sduptownnews.com/in-sync-with-the-stars/  to read this beautifully written article by Celene Adams.

I invite and encourage your comments both on the SD Uptown News website and directly to me.

Celene is the author of the series, A Whim and a Prayer, which profiles the trials and triumphs of entrepreneurs whose businesses have evolved out of their passions and life experience. You can read the expanded version of this article on her website.

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Healer, Intuitive Profiler, Psychic-Medium, Mentor, Speaker and Writer, I am available for private sessions by appointment only. Through Intuitive Profiling, I identify and cut unhealthy energetic cords. Releasing these negative energetic connections allows you to function at a higher vibrational frequency.

I also perform Energetic Space Clearing for business (staff profiles included) or home.

619-573-5927 ~ soulsync@cox.net

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MASKED FEELINGS

I get a great deal of information for clients psychically, but most of my own personal messages come to me in dreams.

My dreams have always been very vivid, sometimes epic sagas.  I try to record them as soon as I begin to wake up as recall is best at that moment.

Face Mask

Last night my mother (who has been deceased for nine years) showed up in my dream.  It was her birthday.  She asked me how I was doing, and I replied as I always did, “I’m fine.”  She stepped away from me and speaking to my father (who has been deceased 35 years) and said, “this is the one child I’ve always worried about.  I can never tell how she really feels.  She says she’s fine but I’m not always sure that’s what’s really going on.”

As she walked away, I pondered.  Was she right?  Yes.

For her birthday, my gift to her was to express my true feelings.  This was a BIG deal!  I wrote to my mom, telling her that she was right; I didn’t let others know how I really felt.  I told her that my need to protect myself started very young, when I didn’t feel safe enough to divulge how I really felt.  My angry and abusive dad made it impossible to open up.  Her mental illness was like deaf ears.

I have consciously worked on being open and honest about my feelings and encourage others to do the same.  I have been more open than ever in personal relationships, especially within the last 10 years, with an emphasis on non-judgment while I remain honest about how I feel.  Even so, sometimes, when I am asked point-blank about how I feel, I have to really dig deep and search for those emotions.  And, sometimes, the feeling still evade my reach, at least at first.

This is real growth and I know it.  I have to remind myself often, however, that this is good – very good.  What happens is that the people we work the hardest to stay in balance with sometimes shy away when we actually find our emotional equilibrium.  That’s because, to them, the rules have changed and they don’t know how to relate to us any longer.  Unless…unless they, too have opted to challenge themselves to personal growth. That’s best case scenario, but, it doesn’t always work out that way.  Further growth happens when we accept that fact and let it be.

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Connie Stewart, Intuitive Profiler, Medium
Energetic Space Clearing (Corporate and Private)
Cutting Energetic Cords to the Past 
619-573-5927

THE GOODNESS IN MEN

"A tree is known by its fruit; a man by his deeds. A good deed is never lost; he who sows courtesy reaps friendship, and he who plants kindness gathers love."

- St. Basil

2012 was a year of receiving ‘proof’ I'd long-since yearned.  For several years I’d been quietly, and sometimes not-so-quietly, looking for the goodness in men.  This might sound trite, but I assure you, it was very important to me.

Natural Goodness

You see, I was raised in an alcoholic home by an abusive father and mentally ill mother. It was never easy and rarely did I feel safe. My father’s ill temper was always at its worst after a night of drinking.  I did not get to see his ‘good’ side. 

I was in my 40’s before I made some peace with my dad.  I wanted to look beyond his earthy self to see the soul-goodness he possessed. I am grateful that I found that in him, even if it was 25 years after his death.

Several years later, I began to desire to see the goodness of men in relationships and in everyday life.  Because of my destructive early imprinting (and the energetic cords that it created) I had a tendency to attract men who, while not nearly as wounded as my dad, were still a long way from what I dreamed of.  I had to admit to myself that these men represented a barometer reading of what was still swirling around in my emotional body.  I began to realize that I might never find myself until I faced the truth about my beliefs about men.

Fast forward:  the year is 2012.  By then, I’d done an extreme amount of personal emotional and energetic work upon my Self.  I was still searching for evidence of the fruit of my labor when I met three extraordinary men.

The first young man is Dr. Oscar Manuel Solorio, Jr., a dentist in Tijuana, Mexico.  Upon a personal referral I visited Dr. Oscar Manuel to have a crown replaced.  He shares an office with his mother and father, both long-time dentists.  The energy in his office is lovely, laid-back and always welcoming.

Not only did Dr. Oscar Manuel do an excellent job on my crown (plus other dental care, as well) but he did it with kindness, respect and compassion.  I received a hug each time I arrive, and also when I left his office.  This type of warmness is often absent in the medical arena, so I especially appreciated the gentleness in which I was treated.  His fee was reasonable and manageable and he never charged me for small extras. 

The second very special young man I had the privilege to meet is Ayham R. Skaf M.D., a Vitreoretinal Surgeon and Board Certified Ophthalmologist.  In mid-2012, I developed a macular hole (hole in my retina) and received a specialist referral.

Dr. Skaf was upbeat, very positive, and like Dr. Oscar Manuel, kind, compassionate and gentle.  Here, I was also greeted with a warm hug, as well as another when I left the office.  Dr. Skaf made a frightening, expensive procedure doable and successful.  His high vibration and light fills the office in a way that was not apparent before his arrival.  

The third man will remain nameless, as the nature of our relationship is personal and private.  However, I will share this with you:  this kind and gentle man is open, curious and very creative.  He is interested in the world of spirit and is supportive of my life work, recognizing the humanity in my efforts.  He is generous and caring and really likes my cats (a huge plus)!  

Having said all of this, the most amazing thing about this man is the way he invites me to communicate my truest nature.  This is critical due to my life-long challenge of full expression.  Raised southern, it was imprinted upon me that a woman should be what the man wants her to be, even if that meant sacrificing her authentic Self.  I’ve done a lot of that…too much of that!  

Times are changing; I am changing.  Who I am is more aware, more accountable and more honest than ever before.  Likewise, so are the beautiful and good men that I have been fortunate enough to magnetize into my life.

Photo by David Troyan Photography